I don't own these characters. If I did, I'd be the happiest person alive. Universal owns them, and THEY'RE the happiest people alive. I just wrote a story to show how much I love Roar, and if you sue me you won't get any money, 'cause I'm broke. Thank you. ____________________________________________ >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>DREAMING Catlin sat by the light of the bonfire, watching Conor. The Samhain celebration had ended with most people staggering away, singing drunkenly, or just sleeping where they fell. Conor rarely drank, so he was still pretty much one of the only halfway-sober people left from the party. The same held true for Catlin, so she could not blame the ale for her wayward thoughts that night. Conor was sitting on a low stool, near the edge of the "heat wall" the 7-foot bonfire formed. Catlin sat nearby and stared at him(not TOO noticeably, she hoped), admiring his every feature. The firelight danced over his hair, turning his blond curls to molten gold, little licks of yellow flame that loved his brow, temples, and ears with scorching kisses. His eyes were distant, dreamy; warm limpid pools of youth and vitality. His skin was smooth, marred by very few battle scars, and bronzed by the sun. She noted the way the knotwork tattoo on his right arm worked its way around the muscle, clinging tightly as if it feared abandonment. His fingers were long and graceful, yet his hands looked so appealingly strong that Catlin's mind began to imagine them gripping a sword tightly, powerfully. Conor WAS strong, she realized, her eyes coming to rest on his right hand, yet he was also very gentle. Gentle... All she'd ever known of a man's touch was brutality, belittlement, and hatred. She began to wonder what it would be like to be touched, GENTLY, by a man's hand, the strong, powerful hand of a sword-wielding warrior. Catlin's mind drifted into dangerous territory - and for once she did not try to hold her wayward thoughts in check. What WOULD it be like? To have a man's hand - CONOR'S hand, perhaps - touch her face gently, stroke her cheek tenderly, trail his fingertips across her lips...? To have him hold her close, his breath on her neck, his soft golden curls tickling her skin as his kisses wandered over her body...? What would it be like to run her fingers through Conor's hair, to pull him closer to her for a kiss, to feel his skin against hers, feel the weight of his body upon hers as he rolled atop her and... "Catlin?" The voice startled her so badly she nearly jumped out of her skin. She looked up in utter shock to see Conor's face not a hand's breadth from her own. He was grinning broadly and his eyes sparkled with a certain mischievous twinkle that made her flutter uneasily. "You're a million leagues away," he said, grinning impossibly wider, "What were you thinking about?" Images of him flooded her mind, images of him touching her, kissing her, caressing her..."Nothing," she answered, a bit too hastily, averting her eyes from his searching gaze. "'Nothing'? You were thinking about 'nothing' awfully hard." She was sure if he grinned any wider, he'd hurt himself. "That was the third time I said your name." Guiltily, she searched the area for somewhere, ANYWHERE to look...anywhere other than that curious face so tantalizingly close. "I had a little too much ale," she defended lamely, "And my brain is wandering the skies a bit." "A likely story." He leaned closer, trying to see her face. He was so close now that she could smell his scent, a vague mix of leather and lavender. Conor ALWAYS seemed to smell of lavender, she mused. Maybe it was his soap. "Catlin? Where are you?" For she had begun to drift silently away again, fancying the sweetly scandalous thought of running a bar of lavender-scented soap over Conor's bare, wet skin... Catlin snapped her treacherous mind back to reality with a guilty start. Conor looked VERY curious now, and he was so close she could feel his breath on her cheek. Images flooded her again, and, panicked, she blurted, "I have to go to bed!" and stood up. In fact, she stood up so fast that she didn't give Conor ample time to stand away, and her shoulder-armor plate smacked him square in the forehead. He stumbled backwards, one hand clamped to his brow. "Owwww..." Catlin scurried solicitously to his side. "Oh, Conor. I'm sorry!" "If you didn't want to talk to me," he said in a teasingly pained tone, "All you had to do was tell me to go away. You didn't have to whack me one!!" He grinned at her, his eyes sparkling merrily. "Oh, you big baby. Here," she crooned, trying to pry his fingers away from his injured forehead, "Let me see." She finally succeeded in getting his hand away and peered at the small, darkening red spot in the center of his brow, half-covered by one drooping curl. "Oh, it's just a scratch." "A scratch? That HURT," he whined playfully. "Awwwww," she crooned in a patronizingly sweet tone, "I'll kiss it and make it better." Before he could respond, she cupped his face in her hands and pressed her lips to the tiny red brow-mark. When she pulled away to look at him, her hands still framing his face, his expression looked to be somewhere between stupification and pleasant surprise. Something in those eyes appealed to her, something sweet, innocent, and vulnerable, and Catlin suddenly found herself pressing her lips to his, drinking in the sweet leather-and-lavender scent of him, kissing him fervently as she had so recently dreamed of doing. Conor, for his part, was heavily startled. He hadn't expected her to kiss his forehead, much less his lips! She pressed closer to him, twining her fingers in his hair, her breath hot against his face. Something in Conor jolted suddenly, his heart slamming against his ribs, his breathing quickening, his eyelids drooping for an instant...two... three... and he was leaning into the kiss, looping his arms about her waist to pull her still closer, pressing his lips on hers just as fervently as she. Catlin's eyes snapped open, and she pulled away quickly, as though she had just suddenly realized what she was doing. "Oh... Conor... I... I'm... I'm sorry!" she blurted, kissed him fleetingly one last time, and scurried to her chamber, somewhere between laughing and crying. Conor, still breathing a bit heavily, gulped hard and chalked her odd behavior up to too much ale. However, he hadn't seen her drink that much, and she hadn't smelled of ale... actually, she had smelled more of wildflowers. Catlin ALWAYS smelled of wildflowers, he mused. Maybe it was her soap. His mind suddenly drifted away, fancying sweetly scandalous thoughts of running a bar of wildflower-scented soap over Catlin's bare, wet skin...Conor shook the thought away violently, silently cursing his over-active imagination and physical desires. It would NEVER do to be thinking about Catlin like that. She certainly didn't think those kinds of thoughts about HIM, now did she? Of course not. She would be SHOCKED to know his mind had even dallied in that line of thought. Conor felt a little like smacking HIMSELF. He thought of Catlin's hands, framing his face tenderly, her nice, cool fingers soothing his burning skin, heated by an intense blush. He thought of her leaning toward him, kissing him. His lips still tingled from the contact, and he ran his tongue over the to try and quell their insistent burning. He smiled. Catlin had been eating honey-soaked bread, he could tell - his lips tasted of it, sweet and nourishing. He sighed, thinking of Catlin blurting an apology and racing off to her chamber. It suddenly struck him that she could have been crying as she ran. Crying? And why would she apologize? Why had she acted so oddly? Was she drunk? No, he reasoned, if she'd been drinking, he would have tasted the ale on his lips as he had the honeyed bread. So she WAS truly upset, not just ale-fogged. He decided to go and make sure she was all right. After all, was it not the job of the leader to look after his people? And he was NOT about to let her hurt - especially if he was involved. He approached Catlin's little stone-and-thatch hut, and went over to the two heavy leather flaps that formed the door. One of the flaps was a bit askance, forming a crack through which he could see Catlin's bed of furs, a small table-and-chairs setup, and an oak chest, all lit by the warm glow of the fire in the enormous circular hearth in the center of the room. He did not see Catlin. Where had she gone? He stood, staring vacantly at the little sliver of room the crack showed him, thinking upon the matter. He had SEEN her go in... Where could she - ? Suddenly, a figure stepped from the shadows and into his field of view. A woman crossed the room, stopped to bask in the firelight. Catlin. And not only was it she, but a very HALF-DRESSED she at that! Apparently, she had been changing for bed, and as Conor's young, fascinated eyes watched unseen through the crack in the flaps, Catlin lifted her brown homespun tunic (all that remained of her clothing) over her head and tossed it onto a nearby chair. Conor gulped hard, suddenly feeling as though his eyes were burning the image into his mind forever. Catlin stood naked by the hearth, arms outstretched to the heat of the flames. Firelight flickered over every curve and swell, and her hair sparkled over her shoulders and down her back. She turned, so that her back was to the flames, and swept aside her hair, trying to heat the rest of her body. Conor gasped. Her back showed the scars of old whippings, silver lines brutally cut into tender white flesh, and just above her left buttock was a white mark that looked to be a healed-over severe burn. Conor had the sudden urge to kiss her wounds, to "make them better" as she had his brow. Catlin walked over to the oak chest at the foot of the bed. Bending, she opened it and began to dig through its contents. Firelight and shadows warred over her body, accentuating every movement, every action that she made; one stray tendril of hair fell into her face and she flung it out of the way with one full-body movement that swung all of her hair over her left shoulder. She found what she had been looking for: a white linen nightshift. She raised it over her head, exposing every firelit curve to Conor's wondering eyes, then dropped it over her body. Scooping up a leather-bound journal, Catlin sat at the table and began to write. Conor stepped back, his face burning with the WORST blush he could ever remember having. He leaned back against the cold stone of the hut, breathing raggedly. His mind relived the past few moments over and over again, filling his head with warm, fancied dreams of Catlin in his arms, his fingers tenderly stroking her scarred back, kissing her honey-sweetened lips. He imagined sweeping her long, sandy-colored hair aside and kissing all those silver slashes, healing them with the soothing balm of his own mouth. Conor shivered in delight at this thought, suddenly realizing that she'd have to be naked for him to kiss her entire back like that. Naked? Once again, his mind's eye saw Catlin's bare form standing in the ruddy glow of the fire, arms outstretched as if trying to embrace the fire goddess. Oh. Conor's brain swam as his body reacted violently to this image. His heart was thudding in his chest, his breathing grew shallow and rapid and, he realized with a great deal of embarrassment, his leather breeches were suddenly feeling too tight. He could never talk to Catlin like THIS. Better to wait until morning, when he'd had a chance to calm down. Ye gods, but he was aching now, the leather of his breeches straining to control his body as he strained to control his emotions. He decided to head for his own chamber and put as much distance between him and temptation as possible. He spun on his heel and headed in the direction of his hut, and in doing so, stepped on a large twig lying on the ground. It broke with a loud SNAP. "Who's out there?" Catlin's voice emanated from the inside of the hut. A chair scraped and Conor heard various scuffling noises as she came to the doorway and threw open the lleather flaps. "Conor? What are you doing out here?" Too late, Conor realized his treacherous body was nowhere near "calmed down" - and Catlin was staring at him... Conor was very close to panicking. Catlin eyed him expectantly, smiling, and Conor could only pray to the Goddess that she didn't look *down*. He folded his hands in front of himself as casually as possible, and forced the waver from his voice as he said, "Oh, hello, Cat. I wasn't sure you were still awake." She smiled. "Conor - it hasn't been but a few moments since I left the fire. What could I have done in THAT much time? Surely not fall asleep." What could she have done, indeed. Conor folded one arm across his chest, clutching the opposite upper arm. The other hand, of course, remained in its strategically-placed position. "Well, I...uh..." He was painfully aware of the flowery scent of her body, the sweet smile on her face... "Conor? Are you all right?" She stepped closer, put her hand on his arm. "I'm just...cold." Cold! What a lie that was! In truth, his entire body burned, a flame that leapt higher and higher with every passing moment. Her face filled with concern, Catlin tugged at Conor's arm, pulling him toward her door. "Cold? Then come in, out of the night air! You don't want to start the new year with an illness, do you?" Conor hesitated. "Well, no, but..." "But NOTHING! Now stop being so polite and come in!" Her tone brooked no refusal, and Conor allowed himself to be led by one arm into her hut. She showed him a chair, and said, "Sit down. I'll get you something to drink." Conor sighed and sat in the directed chair. At least his embarrassingly lusty state wasn't as obvious when he was seated. Catlin scurried to the far side of the chamber, opened an oaken cabinet, and searched through it till she found a flagon of wine and two silver goblets. They were her best drinkingware, bought with the money she'd been saving for a new archery set. She'd purchased them on a whim, with the wishful premise of using them on her wedding day, should she ever marry. With a secretive, girlish giggle, she decided to let Conor drink from one, she from the other. He didn't have to know the symbolism behind the goblets, now did he? She brought the two cups to the table, filled them each with wine from the flagon, and sat down beside Conor, handing him a goblet. He took the proffered drink and drew deeply from it. The wine burned his throat and scalded his tongue, making his already muddled brain even more light. Catlin sipped her own wine, watching Conor's expression. He was hiding something, that was obvious. But what? Oh...the kiss! He must've come to tell her, in his good-hearted way, that her kiss was too soon pressed on lips that still whispered grieving prayers for Claire. That HAD to be it. It was in the way he avoided her eyes, the way he shrank into his chair as if he wished to vanish. He was very clearly uncomfortable, and it pained her. She had to end this, to tell him that she knew he saw the love in her eyes, that he'd seen the pain in her heart. She stood up, leaving her goblet on the table, and walked toward the fire. "Conor - I know why you're here." Conor said nothing, only drank a little more deeply of his wine. Catlin paused, as if gaining strength, then said, "I know, Conor. I know you...saw." Conor choked on half-swallowed wine, felt it burn his nose as struggled to regain composure. She KNEW? Oh, gods! Surely she would think him a bastard now! He stood, forgetting in his shock to cover himself with one hand. "Catlin - let me explain!" "There's nothing to explain, Conor. I know you saw me." Oh, how long she had waited for him to see her true heart, to see in her eyes the REAL Catlin - the one that loved him! "In truth, Conor, I had hoped you would." Conor stood, dumbfounded. She had HOPED he would see her naked? Did she know what it would DO to him? Or his BODY, for that matter? Catlin had been purposely enticing him? But why? And the scars on her back... "Catlin...those scars..." "I *am* scarred," she admitted, "So badly I'd feared I'd never heal. But then I met you...the day you saved me... and from then on, I'd prayed you'd see me and help me to heal my scars." Heal her scars? Sweet Brigit, was she a mind reader, that she'd seen his fantasy of kissing her wounded back? "Cat - I'll help you any way I can...those scars DO look so painful - especially the burn." Catlin turned to face him, utter confusion in her expression. "Burn?" "The one above your left...flank," Conor clarified, "The white, palm-sized one." Catlin's eyebrows shot up. How did he know about THAT? She'd never told him of it, and she never wore clothes revealing enough to show THAT scar! He would only have seen it if he'd seen her while she was... Slowly, the realization began to dawn on them...they weren't talking about the same thing... Catlin approached him, eyeing him warily. "How do you know about my burn scar?" Conor's mouth refused to produce any sound. He'd been in many battles, fought against chieftains, defeated enemies... but how to defend himself against the righteous anger of the violated woman? Catlin clutched his arm, narrowing her eyes as she nearly shouted, "Answer me, Conor!" How had he gotten himself into this? Conor was teetering on the edge of hysteria, looking down into the demanding face of Catlin. "Well...I...uh...came to see...if you were all right...and...uh..." Catlin tightened her grip on his arm as if to spur him on. "And?" "The door was...um...ajar, and...uh...I saw you...by the fire... and...uh..." Here his voice faltered, and he looked away from her in shame. He shut his eyes, expecting the stinging slap that would surely rain on his left cheek. "You saw me naked?" Catlin's voice was disturbingly soft. "Yes." Conor gulped back tears. She hated him now, distrusted him. He just KNEW it. "I see." She released his arm and walked away from him. She moved towards the fire, hugging herself, looking very small and lonely. Conor opened his eyes, surprised that she hadn't struck him. Then it came to him - he was a prince. And the leader. She hadn't hit him because she respected him. New tears stung his eyes. SO respectable. He could've kicked himself. "Catlin..." "Do you want to know how I got that scar? I'll tell you." Catlin stared into the fire as Conor fell into stunned silence. "It was a year ago this very night. One of my Roman captors decided to...give me a Samhain present. He trapped me in a corner and..." She stopped, gaining strength to say the coming words. "He began to force himself on me. I tried to escape, struck at him, fought back...anything to make him stop. Finally, I grabbed a goblet and used it to scoop up some embers from the fire - which I threw in his face." A tiny bit of pride shone through her sorrow, and this did not go unnoticed by Conor. "This allowed me to get away from him, but before I could get to the door, he grabbed my hair and threw me to the floor. He ripped the clothes from my body and..." She stopped, made a small sound Conor worried was a sob. "Catlin..." She sniffed, drew herself up again. "I rolled to my side, trying to avoid him, and he grabbed the ember shovel and held it in the fire till it glowed. Then he swung it at me." She took a deep breath. "I managed to get over on my stomach, so he missed...his intended target...and burned my back." She stopped again, and in a tiny, almost inaudible voice, muttered, "It's ugly, isn't it?" Conor stepped very close to her and whispered, "I thought you were beautiful." Catlin looked up at him, tears streaming down her face. "Beautiful? Do you really think so?" The tear that had been threatening to fall from Conor's eye dripped off his lashes and slid down his face. "Aye. The most beautiful sight I've ever seen." Catlin reached up and tenderly wiped the tear from his cheek, drowning in his earnest brown eyes, reveling in the glow of their sincerity. Oh, how she loved him at that moment. She put her arms around him and sobbed against his chest. Conor held her gently and whispered into her hair, "It's all right, Cat. It's all over now. I'll never let anyone hurt you again, I swear." She raised her tear-stained face to look at him. Their faces were so close their breath mingled as they gazed at each other. Hesitantly, almost timidly, Conor lowered his head and kissed Catlin's lips. He could taste the salt of her tears as he opened his mouth slightly, savoring the taste of her kiss. Catlin whimpered against his lips, clutching the front of his leather tunic. Her arms came up to twine about his neck, her fingers stroking his soft blond curls. Conor's arms pulled her closer to him, tenderly caressing her scarred back through the linen nightshift. She pressed to his body, drinking in the sweet taste of his mouth, feeling the strength in his arms as he held her. Something in Conor leapt, and he suddenly opened his mouth on hers, slipping his tongue into her mouth, his breath hot on her cheek. Catlin became aware of Conor's straining breeches, the hard eagerness of him pressed against her body. She expected to be frightened, but for some reason, she wasn't. This wasn't like her slavery days. Conor would not hurt her, would not force her to do what she did not want to. He was a gentle, loving man who would not for the world harm her. She was safe with him, and that realization made her want him even more... Catlin pulled away from him. "Conor?" He blinked, surprised. Had he done something wrong? Oh, he hoped not. "What is it, Cat? What's wrong?" "Your scar." Conor blinked again, wondering if her kisses would ALWAYS fluster him into incomprehension. "My what? I don't - " "When you were shot with the arrow a few months ago. When we met Shannon." "Oh." He felt as though his head were filled with oatmeal. "You saw my scars. Now let me heal yours." Conor felt a blush seeping into his cheeks. Was she being serious? "Cat - I don't..." "Please?" She WAS serious. Her eyes said so. Conor didn't see any harm in it, so he agreed. Slowly, he unlaced his leather tunic, unfastened the strap that held the vest tight to his body, and took it off. He put the whole thing on the chair where Catlin's discarded brown homespun still lay. Catlin stepped up to him, placed her hands on his bare chest, almost timidly. The fingers of her right hand trailed lightly over the round white scar just above his left collarbone. She wanted to heal it, make it better, make his pain vanish... She touched her lips to the mark, tenderly kissing the pain away. Conor gasped, first in surprise, then in pleasure. The feel of her lips on his skin was nice, he decided, VERY nice. His reaction encouraged Catlin to trail her kisses up to his neck, his throat, the underside of his jaw... She could feel his heart beating wildly beneath her hand, his skin hot and flushed. Conor put his arms around her waist, stroking the small of her back, innocently coaxing her closer. Catlin, now doubly encouraged, worked her kisses up the side of his neck, then nibbled lightly at his left ear, carefully avoiding the silver earring in the lobe. This was almost too much for Conor to take, and he moaned audibly, clutching her closer to him. Reassured, Catlin nibbled a little harder. "Ohhh..." Conor didn't know how much longer he could control himself. No one had ever done this to him before, and the thrill of first experience made it doubly pleasurable. He tightened his arms around her, holding her so firmly he could feel the heat of her body through her linen nightshift. Catlin's tongue flicked lightly over the earring, then worked its way down to the hollow at the base of his throat. Pushed to the edge, Conor rained soft kisses over Cat's nose, cheeks, and forehead before finally covering her mouth with his own, once again tasting the sweet honey of her lips. They clung together, each feeding off the other's body heat. Catlin eagerly matched the rhythm of Conor's mouth, kissing him as though she'd never stop. Conor leaned into the kiss, pushing her slightly backward. Catlin's arms reached around him to clutch at his back, her short nails biting into his flesh. For Conor, this hurt, but it also felt strangely good for some reason, and it goaded him into leaning still further. Catlin's knees gave out, and Conor lowered her to the furs on the floor beside the blazing hearth-fire. Tenderly, he gazed into her dream-filled eyes, then lowered his head to kiss her cheek, her jaw, her neck. She stroked his golden curls, whispering little endearments that she would've felt foolish saying at any other time. She ran her hands over his shoulders and down his back, loving the feel of his weight upon her. Coaxing him closer, she kissed his neck and shoulders, delighting in his ragged, eager breathing. Conor had never been with a woman before, and the feel of her beneath him, warm and inviting, was absolutely maddening. He dropped a kiss on the place where her neck and shoulder met, easing aside the neckline of her nightshift. He pressed his lips to her newly-revealed shoulder, her collarbone, her upper chest, her... "Catlin! Are you awake? Come quickly!" Tully charged into the room, shouting, "Catlin! Your horse..." The young couple sat up with a start, Catlin clutching at the open front of her nightshift, Conor shielding her from view with his own body - and looking unmistakably guilty... Tully stood speechless. What had he walked in on? From the looks on their faces, Conor and Catlin had been doing something they hadn't planned on interrupting. A grin broke out across the dark-skinned boy's face, making him look like a true scamp. "Am I interrupting something?" Conor was too embarrassed to be angry at Tully's impertinence. "What's wrong, Tully?" Tully grinned still wider. "Catlin's little mare is foaling. We thought she might want to be there to see it. However, if you two are BUSY..." Conor stood up, the fury finally beginning to course through his veins. "Tully...!" Catlin scurried to her feet, laid a soothing hand on Conor's trembling arm. "It's all right, Conor. Tully - my Alpha's foaling?" Tully's grin was dangerously close to a smirk. "Yeah - if you want to see it, you'd better hurry. That is, if you'll have TIME tonight..." Conor took a step toward Tully and the little imp nearly BOLTED from the hut, still grinning. Catlin was casting about for her clothes, gathering her skirt, boots, belt... "Where's my tunic?" She wondered aloud, looking about the chamber for it. "On the chair," Conor said, "Where you threw it when you..." He stopped, bit his tongue. Catlin gave him a quizzical look, then laughed as the reason for his embarrassment dawned on her. "When I took it off?" She asked, smiling. Conor flushed an appealing shade of pink. "Um...yeah." Catlin loved the way he said the word "yeah" - he made it sound as though there were an "r" on the end. One more endearing little thing about him for her to love. "Here." She picked up his leather tunic and handed it to him. "Go on out and see how they're coming along. I have to change." With that, she scuffled him out the door, giggling. Once he was gone, Cat undressed and began to put on her regular clothes. As she pulled her homespun tunic over her head, she caught Conor's scent on the cloth. He had lain his leather vest on top of it, and now the fabric smelled of him. She smiled, hugging herself, then hurried out the door to where her dreams stood waiting. ******************************************** Well, that's it, folks!! I hope you liked it! Special thanx to Alethea, Jenn, Lexy, StormWolf, hairbender, DSBlade, and DarkWolf for all their love and support.I hope you had as much fun as I did. Thanx lots for reading, and don't forget to write and tell me what you think! ConorSoul